Going back to my previous post of me wanting to lose my phone, well my phone is pretty fucked up but still functional. The home beacon and the lock button are stuck so it’s just a touch screen. And I have seven more months left in my contract. Oh well, time to use it less. But it’s good for me since I won’t expect anything.

I should edit my playlist again. I swear I have a random taste in music. There’ll be some r&b, then kpop, then some indie, acoustic, etc. I can’t decide in which genre I’d like it to play the most.

Sometimes I sort of want to lose my phone. And start in a clean slate.

I’m trying to be the type of person that does not break promises. I try not to make them if I know that there’s a chance that I won’t be able to fulfill it. I say this because I realized how paranoid I am when dealing with promises. When someone promises me something, I tend to have a doubt that it won’t come true.

Fucking pissed off. What the fuck. I got fucking conned. Well yeah. Now I’m getting written up at work -.- Fuck you, last customer. Hope you get your fucking karma. I just hope I don’t lose my job because of you.

/rant.

The weird thing was that I kept on seeing you in my dreams lately. I guess it was a warning. 

Damn. I needed last night. I was speeding it back home last night so I can watch the fireworks with friends like how I’ve always done every year, but I missed it by about five minutes. It was saddening. But then I visited Jehl and headed out to a party. It was pretty random. I needed it. It felt like high school all over again tho. But I got to see a few people that I talked to. Then slept over his place. I’m glad I went^^ Made another new memory in Redlands hahah. 

Someone take me home for Fourth of July:/ Aiden isn’t really fixed yet to be driving on the freeway. But I haven’t spent time with my family in the longest. 

Imagine meeting someone that caught your eye in college and then seeing them years later when you’ve lived your own lives. Imagine the excitement and butterflies you would get. Is it fate…to have such coincidences in life. 

So my kuya from fasa took me out yesterday since I had a morning shift. We went to Castle in ktown. Paid for the whole day. First time we actually talked with just the two of us there. Aw, ahding/kuya bonding time haha. Then we went to Boba Bear and hookah’d. It was my third time trying hookah. I liked the spot; it was chill. I got annoyed not being able to do the o’s again. Anyways, it was a nice day^^

I’ve been feeling so depressed lately because I can’t go out. Not that I’m not allowed to, it’s ‘cause there’s something wrong with Aiden (my civic) and I can’t really drive it. Tito is gonna try and fix it but when he has time ‘cause he’s also working on someone else’s car. So this is how it feels to those who have licenses but don’t have cars to drive around. 

The only bright side is that I don’t spend that much besides the car costs. I just need to stop surfing online ‘cause it tempts me to shop. 

Kinda awk to let other people touch my clothes and undies even though they are clean. Like while doing laundry. Personal haha.

I regret not going to sleep right when I got home. I am gonna be one cranky girl at work today. I better go straight to sleep when I get home from work. Fuuuhhhh.

So I had a questionable dream last night when I finally got to sleep. And then I woke up pretty early (well for me anyways) to go to school. Kept on walking around and driving around to find free parking in the streets. Paid my citation. And then went back home toward ice cream and get ready for work. Work was frustrating cause coworkers kept on messing with me by pairing me up with two other coworkers. They even combined my name with theirs. Agh. Made me want to scream. Then I got a lovely surprise towards the end of my break. Brian suddenly walked through the doors and I was like “he looks familiar”. Haha. I know there’s a high chance you’re reading this. That was a sort of highlight to my day. Then work ended and I had to fill up my tank :/ and pick up my little brother and relatives to go back to Redlands. Agh. An hour and a half trip turned into two and a half. Traffic is frustrating. Anyways. That was my day :3
I want to go on a road trip now.

It’s nice to know that I still have friends that still talk to me comfortably about their thoughts.